It's Booth time
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mistletoeOK. Here are some pivotal moments in the understanding of Booth's character as they are revealed in Season 2.
That’s you all over- putting things right.
Yeah, you know, it’s important to make things right. I just don’t know how. I don’t know how.
SEASON 2 Making things right.
In The Headless Witch in the Woods Cam reaches for Booth's hand while watching the video and Brennan notices. So far, Booth has always tried to keep under the radar with anything personal and he has not flaunted his association with Cam. Now Brennan knows, that will not be possible. As ever, she simply states the situation and, as ever, Booth is floored.
Why does Booth seem embarrassed whenever romantic discussions loom on the horizon? It's not just with Bones. He always tries to laugh things off when Angela does her straight talking thing. Also, when Booth thinks they are talking about the case, often they are talking about him and he becomes more defensive.
BRENNAN: People need connection, Booth. Even me. Obviously, you have one with Cam. So -
BOOTH: What?
BRENNAN: I thought you’d mention it. I mean, isn’t that what partners do? Tell each other about their lives?
BOOTH: Wait a second. Look, Bones, I-
BRENNAN: Sorry. I’m sorry. I forgot how self-conscious you are talking about sex.
BOOTH: I am not- I’m- (Booth is speechless)
Later he tells her he wasn't hiding anything he was just being discreet, like the gentleman he is. No cheating. But I think he is afraid to show anything exists for her to know about outside of work as far as he is concerned. He even comes up with an explanation for why he won't talk to her about his personal feelings.
Now he knows she knows, we get Booth trying to justify his actions.
BRENNAN: I didn’t say anything.
BOOTH: But you’re looking at me like - I’m in trouble and you’re a teacher.
BRENNAN: You’re very touchy lately, Booth.
BOOTH: Look, Bones. I don’t know why I didn’t tell you about Cam.
BRENNAN: Did I mention Cam?
BOOTH: I just didn’t want it to get weird, I guess.
BRENNAN: Weird?
BOOTH: We’re partners, you know? Together all the time, right? You’re a woman and I’m a man and I never had a relationship like this where we were - like two guys, except you’re not - ya know - a guy. Yeah.
BRENNAN: No. No, I’m not. Should I feel odd about - wanting to hang out with Will?
BOOTH: No, of course not. You know, because essentially - I mean - you’re a guy like me. But not really.
BRENNAN: That would mean that, to me, you are essentially a woman. (she pauses a second to ponder this) Yeah, I can see that.
BOOTH: No, no, no. I’d – I'd prefer not to be a woman, if you don’t mind.
BRENNAN: I’m merely trying to follow your reasoning, Booth.
So he tries to get out of why he doesn't like discussing relationships with her by claiming he tries to think of her as a guy. This is pretty spurious reasoning covering the fact that Booth still feels uncomfortable about working with a woman who thinks like a man. She is not interested in his relationship with Cam in the way a woman normally would be and he is just non-plussed.
The end of the episode is not about Cam and Booth however. It is about Booth stepping in to comfort Bones and they are indeed partners.
BRENNAN: I sure know how to pick’em, don’t I?
BOOTH: Well, you know. Our perceptions are alway colored by what we hope and what we fear, what we love. We do the best we can.
BRENNAN: I’m afraid my best isn’t good enough. I can read bones, not people.
BOOTH: Well, you had no trouble seeing through me.
(Brennan smiles then stands goes around to the front of her desk)
BRENNAN: It’s a good thing I like being alone.
BOOTH: You know what? Bones, you’re not alone. Okay? Come here. (He places his hand on her back)
Brennan (turning to face him): Booth.
BOOTH: Hey, you’re my partner. Okay? It’s a guy hug. Take it.
(She hesitates a second before stepping into his embrace. She hugs him tighter and he rubs her back)
This all leads nowhere new, just reaffirms that Booth is a very secretive guy who wants to act as a gentleman and keep relationships out of the workplace. It also shows that although he does say things to Brennan about romance, they tend to be generalisations stating a belief, rather than at this stage personalising it. He says 'we' meaning humans rather than 'I', meaning himself. But I think we can draw the inference that this is his personal belief.
Things of course come to a head in The Man in the Cell. Here we have Protective!Booth pulling out all the stops. He tries to keep everyone safe from Caroline Epps to Brennan and is truthfully only partly successful. This brings to the fore how much of a facade of strength Booth presents and how he feels when he fails.
Firstly Caroline Epps. Once Epps has escaped, the first thing Booth does is offer protection to Mrs Epps. She refuses and her refusal is the first hint that Booth cannot control everything.
BRENNAN: What-- You can’t let her go! She’s not safe!
BOOTH: Well, I can’t force her to take protection, all right? I’ll have the local police drive by her house every couple of hours and make sure she’s safe.
So he's done what he can for Caroline, now for Brennan:
BOOTH: You and Epps-- Okay, it’s personal. You’re everything that he hates.
BRENNAN: And what is that exactly?
BOOTH: Well, you know, you’re a smart, strong, confident woman. (Brennan smiles.) And, uh, figured him out. You made him feel powerless so he’s gonna want to, uh, prove that, uh, you’re weak and inferior. So, you are not to go out on your own, ever.
Two down, Cam to go.
CAM: You think Epps is gonna come after Brennan?
BOOTH: I can’t rule anything out when it comes to Epps.
CAM: I’ll take care of it.
BOOTH: Look, I-I don’t want you to be alone either.
CAM: Are you inviting me over?
BOOTH: I’m just thinking that everyone should just stay here at the lab.
CAM: Leave it to a serial killer to spoil the mood.
BOOTH: Whatever security you think is enough, you double it, Camille. (Walking toward her and leaning in. She gazes into his eyes. Booth smiles. She kisses him.)
CAM: I’m glad you’re on my side, Seeley.
He's on everybody's side, but there are chinks in his armour that catch him out. Firstly, Parker. When Epps uses Parker to leave a clue, Booth gets close to panic and when he panics he gets angry.
BOOTH: Hey! (Cam wheezing.) Welcome back.
CAM: Why can’t I breathe?
BOOTH: Your saw, it um, it hit some kind of poison, but, uh, you’re gonna be all right.
CAM: Zack?
BOOTH: He’s fine. Okay? Everyone- everyone’s good. (Cam nods.) I’m- I’m . . . I’m so sorry, you know, that I put so much pressure on you to hurry. I didn’t, uh-
CAM: (Wheezing) Not your fault. Epps did this to me.
BOOTH: (Sniffles) Hey. Your family’s coming.
CAM: Oh, God. (Coughing.) And I thought poison . . . was my biggest problem.
This is Booth at rock bottom, so who else can he save? Zack. Even then, what he does is not acknowledged. When Zack triggers a bomb, Booth saves his life, with scant gratitude being shown.
BRENNAN: (To Zack.) You gonna be all right?
ZACK: My doctor said most of my injuries didn’t come from the explosion but from being slammed into the floor. (To Booth.) Apparently, you’re extremely strong.
BRENNAN: (To Booth.) Did you have to be so rough on him?
BOOTH: It was a bomb. I was being, you know, heroic.
ZACK: (To Brennan.) I was heroic too.
BRENNAN: Yes, you were.
BOOTH: Somebody saved somebody. That’s all I’m saying.
ZACK: Well, I got the poison.
BRENNAN: Which is good because Caroline’s body was blown to pieces.
BOOTH: That was good thinking, you know, you keeping your wits. But I mean, what I did was, uh . . . (Looking at Brennan and Zack’s incredulous looks.) I guess if you have to explain to yourself why you’re a hero, I guess you’re not really a hero.
Yet again, Booth goes unrecognised, even by those who acted foolishly and should be dead if it weren't for him. The count is 3-1 and only Brennan is left. He will save her, but he will not save Epps. This costs the most. Brennan, Angela, Cam and Parker are still alive and it looks like Booth will come out on top by saving Brennan. Epps makes sure he is left full of doubts about what personal connections can do to someone in his job.
BOOTH: You’re not getting away, Howard. (Brennan appears and leans over to look.)
EPPS: (Panting) Look who the killer is now, Agent Booth.
BOOTH: A little help here, Bones? I got nothing but dead weight here. Help me.
EPPS: You’re gonna drop me anyway. Just get it over with.
BOOTH: You son of a bitch.
EPPS: Are you saying you don’t want me dead?
BOOTH: Yeah, I’m not you.
EPPS: Oh, really? You’re not thinking of the world with me still in it? Going after Dr. Brennan, your son-
BOOTH: I’m not you. (Booth and Brennan grunting, straining to reach.. Epps whimpers, gasps, and Booth loses his grip. Epps falls to the pavement.)
Booth is stunned. Yet he keeps repeating I'm not you. Is this to convince himself? That he is in control? In the aftermath he refuses to accept attempts to shift the blame from him.
AGENT #1: Unit on the ground saw what happened. So did the sniper across the street. You tried to save him.
BOOTH: Yep.
BRENNAN: No one could’ve helped him.
BOOTH: (Nodding) Yeah.
AGENT #1: You can take off now, Booth. Department might want to assign you a shrink- on the job death like that. (Exits.)
BRENNAN: You didn’t have your full strength. Your wrist was hurt from pulling Zack away from the explosion.
BOOTH: My wrist wasn’t hurt, Bones.
BRENNAN: (scoffs) I wish you’d let me shoot him.
BOOTH: No, you don’t. (Getting up and walking out he punches the door as he goes.)
This has been a difficult passage for Booth. In the episode Epps said to Brennan everything that happens from here on is your fault. I have no doubt that Booth feels that everything that happened was his fault. Only Epps and his ex wife died, but there has been a cost: a steep cost.
The final scene lays out what Booth now believes. It is Saturday and he is mending fences with Parker.
BRENNAN: Saturday morning. How’s Parker?
BOOTH: Yeah, I’m afraid I freaked him out the other day. He’s really scared of this place. Now I gotta put that right. (Sitting down on a bench.)
BRENNAN: That’s you all over- putting thingss right. (Sits down next to Booth. Exhales.) Cam gets released from the hospital today?
BOOTH: Yeah.
BRENNAN: What?
BOOTH: You know, what happened to Cam happened because . . . we had a personal relationship.
BRENNAN: Had?
BOOTH: Yeah. People who work in . . . high-risk situations they can’t be involved romantically because it leads to things like what happened.
BRENNAN: High-risk situations.
BOOTH: Every single day it’s with us. There’s this line, and we can’t cross it. You know what I’m saying?
BRENNAN: Yes. I understand. (she takes a deep breath. Parker waves from the merry-go-round. Looking at Parker.) He seems okay now.
BOOTH: Yeah, you know, it’s important to make things right. I just don’t know how. I don’t know how.
A BOOTH FOR ALL SEASONS
That’s you all over- putting things right.
Yeah, you know, it’s important to make things right. I just don’t know how. I don’t know how.
SEASON 2 Making things right.
In The Headless Witch in the Woods Cam reaches for Booth's hand while watching the video and Brennan notices. So far, Booth has always tried to keep under the radar with anything personal and he has not flaunted his association with Cam. Now Brennan knows, that will not be possible. As ever, she simply states the situation and, as ever, Booth is floored.
Why does Booth seem embarrassed whenever romantic discussions loom on the horizon? It's not just with Bones. He always tries to laugh things off when Angela does her straight talking thing. Also, when Booth thinks they are talking about the case, often they are talking about him and he becomes more defensive.
BOOTH: What?
BRENNAN: I thought you’d mention it. I mean, isn’t that what partners do? Tell each other about their lives?
BOOTH: Wait a second. Look, Bones, I-
BRENNAN: Sorry. I’m sorry. I forgot how self-conscious you are talking about sex.
BOOTH: I am not- I’m- (Booth is speechless)
Later he tells her he wasn't hiding anything he was just being discreet, like the gentleman he is. No cheating. But I think he is afraid to show anything exists for her to know about outside of work as far as he is concerned. He even comes up with an explanation for why he won't talk to her about his personal feelings.
Now he knows she knows, we get Booth trying to justify his actions.
BRENNAN: I didn’t say anything.
BOOTH: But you’re looking at me like - I’m in trouble and you’re a teacher.
BRENNAN: You’re very touchy lately, Booth.
BOOTH: Look, Bones. I don’t know why I didn’t tell you about Cam.
BRENNAN: Did I mention Cam?
BOOTH: I just didn’t want it to get weird, I guess.
BRENNAN: Weird?
BOOTH: We’re partners, you know? Together all the time, right? You’re a woman and I’m a man and I never had a relationship like this where we were - like two guys, except you’re not - ya know - a guy. Yeah.
BRENNAN: No. No, I’m not. Should I feel odd about - wanting to hang out with Will?
BOOTH: No, of course not. You know, because essentially - I mean - you’re a guy like me. But not really.
BRENNAN: That would mean that, to me, you are essentially a woman. (she pauses a second to ponder this) Yeah, I can see that.
BOOTH: No, no, no. I’d – I'd prefer not to be a woman, if you don’t mind.
BRENNAN: I’m merely trying to follow your reasoning, Booth.
So he tries to get out of why he doesn't like discussing relationships with her by claiming he tries to think of her as a guy. This is pretty spurious reasoning covering the fact that Booth still feels uncomfortable about working with a woman who thinks like a man. She is not interested in his relationship with Cam in the way a woman normally would be and he is just non-plussed.
The end of the episode is not about Cam and Booth however. It is about Booth stepping in to comfort Bones and they are indeed partners.
BRENNAN: I sure know how to pick’em, don’t I?
BOOTH: Well, you know. Our perceptions are alway colored by what we hope and what we fear, what we love. We do the best we can.
BRENNAN: I’m afraid my best isn’t good enough. I can read bones, not people.
BOOTH: Well, you had no trouble seeing through me.
(Brennan smiles then stands goes around to the front of her desk)
BRENNAN: It’s a good thing I like being alone.
BOOTH: You know what? Bones, you’re not alone. Okay? Come here. (He places his hand on her back)
Brennan (turning to face him): Booth.
BOOTH: Hey, you’re my partner. Okay? It’s a guy hug. Take it.
(She hesitates a second before stepping into his embrace. She hugs him tighter and he rubs her back)
The guy hug
This all leads nowhere new, just reaffirms that Booth is a very secretive guy who wants to act as a gentleman and keep relationships out of the workplace. It also shows that although he does say things to Brennan about romance, they tend to be generalisations stating a belief, rather than at this stage personalising it. He says 'we' meaning humans rather than 'I', meaning himself. But I think we can draw the inference that this is his personal belief.
Things of course come to a head in The Man in the Cell. Here we have Protective!Booth pulling out all the stops. He tries to keep everyone safe from Caroline Epps to Brennan and is truthfully only partly successful. This brings to the fore how much of a facade of strength Booth presents and how he feels when he fails.
Firstly Caroline Epps. Once Epps has escaped, the first thing Booth does is offer protection to Mrs Epps. She refuses and her refusal is the first hint that Booth cannot control everything.
BRENNAN: What-- You can’t let her go! She’s not safe!
BOOTH: Well, I can’t force her to take protection, all right? I’ll have the local police drive by her house every couple of hours and make sure she’s safe.
So he's done what he can for Caroline, now for Brennan:
BOOTH: You and Epps-- Okay, it’s personal. You’re everything that he hates.
BRENNAN: And what is that exactly?
BOOTH: Well, you know, you’re a smart, strong, confident woman. (Brennan smiles.) And, uh, figured him out. You made him feel powerless so he’s gonna want to, uh, prove that, uh, you’re weak and inferior. So, you are not to go out on your own, ever.
Two down, Cam to go.
CAM: You think Epps is gonna come after Brennan?
BOOTH: I can’t rule anything out when it comes to Epps.
CAM: I’ll take care of it.
BOOTH: Look, I-I don’t want you to be alone either.
CAM: Are you inviting me over?
BOOTH: I’m just thinking that everyone should just stay here at the lab.
CAM: Leave it to a serial killer to spoil the mood.
BOOTH: Whatever security you think is enough, you double it, Camille. (Walking toward her and leaning in. She gazes into his eyes. Booth smiles. She kisses him.)
CAM: I’m glad you’re on my side, Seeley.
He's on everybody's side, but there are chinks in his armour that catch him out. Firstly, Parker. When Epps uses Parker to leave a clue, Booth gets close to panic and when he panics he gets angry.
All he achieves is scaring Parker. And of course he uses his connection to Cam to force her to do something very foolish.
BOOTH: Listen, Epps just went after my kid, Cam.
CAM: Parker.
BOOTH: You know there’s something there. He told us. It’s something we need. He wants us to find it.
CAM: You’re upset.
BOOTH: Of course I’m upset! Listen, I know there are protocols, but he could’ve killed my son. (Booth hangs up.)
Third failure for Booth: Caroline is dead; Parker is terrified of his Dad and Cam is dying. Everything he has tried has failed. This is not what we expect of Booth the FBI hero.
In the hospital he is helpless:
DOCTOR: Her heart rate is erratic. There’s clotting in the kidneys.
BOOTH: How bad is that?
DOCTOR: Bad enough. But what worries us more is the lung damage. The toxin has caused oedema.
BOOTH: What does that mean? I don’t know what that means.
BRENNAN: Fluid buildup. Essentially, she’s drowning. I’m sorry.
All he can do is watch over her and apologise.
BOOTH: Listen, Epps just went after my kid, Cam.
CAM: Parker.
BOOTH: You know there’s something there. He told us. It’s something we need. He wants us to find it.
CAM: You’re upset.
BOOTH: Of course I’m upset! Listen, I know there are protocols, but he could’ve killed my son. (Booth hangs up.)
Third failure for Booth: Caroline is dead; Parker is terrified of his Dad and Cam is dying. Everything he has tried has failed. This is not what we expect of Booth the FBI hero.
In the hospital he is helpless:
DOCTOR: Her heart rate is erratic. There’s clotting in the kidneys.
BOOTH: How bad is that?
DOCTOR: Bad enough. But what worries us more is the lung damage. The toxin has caused oedema.
BOOTH: What does that mean? I don’t know what that means.
BRENNAN: Fluid buildup. Essentially, she’s drowning. I’m sorry.
All he can do is watch over her and apologise.
BOOTH: Hey! (Cam wheezing.) Welcome back.
CAM: Why can’t I breathe?
BOOTH: Your saw, it um, it hit some kind of poison, but, uh, you’re gonna be all right.
CAM: Zack?
BOOTH: He’s fine. Okay? Everyone- everyone’s good. (Cam nods.) I’m- I’m . . . I’m so sorry, you know, that I put so much pressure on you to hurry. I didn’t, uh-
CAM: (Wheezing) Not your fault. Epps did this to me.
BOOTH: (Sniffles) Hey. Your family’s coming.
CAM: Oh, God. (Coughing.) And I thought poison . . . was my biggest problem.
This is Booth at rock bottom, so who else can he save? Zack. Even then, what he does is not acknowledged. When Zack triggers a bomb, Booth saves his life, with scant gratitude being shown.
BRENNAN: (To Zack.) You gonna be all right?
ZACK: My doctor said most of my injuries didn’t come from the explosion but from being slammed into the floor. (To Booth.) Apparently, you’re extremely strong.
BRENNAN: (To Booth.) Did you have to be so rough on him?
BOOTH: It was a bomb. I was being, you know, heroic.
ZACK: (To Brennan.) I was heroic too.
BRENNAN: Yes, you were.
BOOTH: Somebody saved somebody. That’s all I’m saying.
ZACK: Well, I got the poison.
BRENNAN: Which is good because Caroline’s body was blown to pieces.
BOOTH: That was good thinking, you know, you keeping your wits. But I mean, what I did was, uh . . . (Looking at Brennan and Zack’s incredulous looks.) I guess if you have to explain to yourself why you’re a hero, I guess you’re not really a hero.
Yet again, Booth goes unrecognised, even by those who acted foolishly and should be dead if it weren't for him. The count is 3-1 and only Brennan is left. He will save her, but he will not save Epps. This costs the most. Brennan, Angela, Cam and Parker are still alive and it looks like Booth will come out on top by saving Brennan. Epps makes sure he is left full of doubts about what personal connections can do to someone in his job.
BOOTH: You’re not getting away, Howard. (Brennan appears and leans over to look.)
EPPS: (Panting) Look who the killer is now, Agent Booth.
BOOTH: A little help here, Bones? I got nothing but dead weight here. Help me.
BRENNAN: (Trying to reach but not being able to.) Sorry. Can’t reach.
BOOTH: Grab the railing.EPPS: You’re gonna drop me anyway. Just get it over with.
BOOTH: You son of a bitch.
EPPS: Are you saying you don’t want me dead?
BOOTH: Yeah, I’m not you.
EPPS: Oh, really? You’re not thinking of the world with me still in it? Going after Dr. Brennan, your son-
Booth is stunned. Yet he keeps repeating I'm not you. Is this to convince himself? That he is in control? In the aftermath he refuses to accept attempts to shift the blame from him.
AGENT #1: Unit on the ground saw what happened. So did the sniper across the street. You tried to save him.
BOOTH: Yep.
BRENNAN: No one could’ve helped him.
BOOTH: (Nodding) Yeah.
AGENT #1: You can take off now, Booth. Department might want to assign you a shrink- on the job death like that. (Exits.)
BRENNAN: You didn’t have your full strength. Your wrist was hurt from pulling Zack away from the explosion.
BOOTH: My wrist wasn’t hurt, Bones.
BRENNAN: (scoffs) I wish you’d let me shoot him.
BOOTH: No, you don’t. (Getting up and walking out he punches the door as he goes.)
This has been a difficult passage for Booth. In the episode Epps said to Brennan everything that happens from here on is your fault. I have no doubt that Booth feels that everything that happened was his fault. Only Epps and his ex wife died, but there has been a cost: a steep cost.
The final scene lays out what Booth now believes. It is Saturday and he is mending fences with Parker.
BRENNAN: Saturday morning. How’s Parker?
BOOTH: Yeah, I’m afraid I freaked him out the other day. He’s really scared of this place. Now I gotta put that right. (Sitting down on a bench.)
BRENNAN: That’s you all over- putting thingss right. (Sits down next to Booth. Exhales.) Cam gets released from the hospital today?
BOOTH: Yeah.
BRENNAN: What?
BOOTH: You know, what happened to Cam happened because . . . we had a personal relationship.
BRENNAN: Had?
BOOTH: Yeah. People who work in . . . high-risk situations they can’t be involved romantically because it leads to things like what happened.
BRENNAN: High-risk situations.
BOOTH: Every single day it’s with us. There’s this line, and we can’t cross it. You know what I’m saying?
BRENNAN: Yes. I understand. (she takes a deep breath. Parker waves from the merry-go-round. Looking at Parker.) He seems okay now.
BOOTH: Yeah, you know, it’s important to make things right. I just don’t know how. I don’t know how.
So Booth draws his line, rejects relationships at work and admits he doesn't know how to fix everything. This three story arc featuring Epps has produced a sea change in Booth. At first he is sure of himself and the verdict that Epps is guilty. He tries to make things right for Epps' victims by calling Amy to delay the execution so he can be tried for further murders. The first clue that is the wrong outcome is when Epps thanks them for doing what he wanted.
The second case shows Booth that as a result of saving Epps, he has had a partner kill 2 girls and torture a third. Brennan kills the accomplice, which also feeds into Epps' ego trip. Booth and Brennan are his puppets and Booth has to admit that Epps won. This ending has resulted in Booth putting Cam in danger because he is frightened by what happened to Parker. In the end he cannot save Epps' life, but he must wonder what exactly happened at the end when he slipped from his grasp.
A death always results in Booth questioning himself, wondering if he could have done anything different; wondering if the person deserved to die; wondering if he took a life for the right reason. These questions will come to bear heavily on Booth's psyche and lead to him rebuilding his confidence, which I think has been severely damaged if not lost as a result of Howard Epps. If nothing else we have seen that Booth is just a man, however heroic he wants to be.
The second case shows Booth that as a result of saving Epps, he has had a partner kill 2 girls and torture a third. Brennan kills the accomplice, which also feeds into Epps' ego trip. Booth and Brennan are his puppets and Booth has to admit that Epps won. This ending has resulted in Booth putting Cam in danger because he is frightened by what happened to Parker. In the end he cannot save Epps' life, but he must wonder what exactly happened at the end when he slipped from his grasp.
A death always results in Booth questioning himself, wondering if he could have done anything different; wondering if the person deserved to die; wondering if he took a life for the right reason. These questions will come to bear heavily on Booth's psyche and lead to him rebuilding his confidence, which I think has been severely damaged if not lost as a result of Howard Epps. If nothing else we have seen that Booth is just a man, however heroic he wants to be.
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Date: 2010-11-26 12:21 am (UTC)However I understand how much it must have hurt to put your heart out there and be turned down...
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